Thoughts in May – Semester abroad
I have to cry, this happens often at the moment. Just two months left in Germany and then I will be gone for so long. That is a thought I have to get used to. I will stay in New Zealand for about 8 months and to be honest I do not really know how to think about that. I am really looking forward to that time, but I will leave so much behind me. That I have to do a semester abroad was on my pro list when I made the decision for my studies and the right university, but now it is just stressing me out. The process you have to go through until you are actually starting your trip is complicated and annying. Again and again new things have to be done and the pressure increases with every day.
But that is enough negative stuff! On the other hand I am really looking forward to that time, this time for myself. In July I will fly to the other side of the world and I can’t believe it. I can feel my heart beating when I think about it. I can’t really figure out my thoughts. “I really need a new bikini!”, screams my left brainside and my right one: “That is not really important at the moment. Wait for your visa and after that we can talk about bikinis!” My left side is mad now and hides somewhere in the dark in my head. The bad thing: You need both sides of your brain to think probably, so I just don’t. I just keep sleeping and try to figure things out in my dreams.
Mess doesn’t even describe my condition at the moment closely, I would rather call it hyper-super-mess. At least when it is about my flat and New Zealand, my blog and university are quite fine. It will stay a mystery how I am able to seperate these things. And it happens again, my thoughts and brain sides seem to drift into different directions. PENG. I can not think propably anymore. I will tell you whenever I am back…